Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Break Time

The breadth and enormity of my loss is crushing me lately. I know many of you readers have some stories and moments of loss and tragedy, and all tell me time will help heal the pain. I cannot grasp this concept, I hear and understand it, but so far , time is only bringing more pain . I know it is early still, but my loss is so huge , I cannot see how time can cover it. It is overwhelming my days and nights.
I will take a small blogging break , as it is very hard to write now. I do want to write about my other daughter, so I'll be back.
Remember , never, ever wait to show the ones that you love...how much they mean to you. Please remember.

Love Strong,


  1. I will think of you and your family daily and keep you in my prayers.

  2. You will remain on my heart and in my prayers, Gina.

  3. I believe that depression following the death of a child is very common, and can be severe.

    In the previous post, you mentioned that someone had sent you a care pack.

    In England, in the case of fatal road accidents, the Police provide families with a care pack. Some of the details are here:

    If you click on 'Coping with grief when someone you love is killed on the road', you can download a PDF document. It's about 32 pages.

    Personally, I don't think that 'time heals', just by trying to forget.

    Time may let things get covered over to an extent, but the wound is there, and at some point, I think you will need to take this up again.

  4. Dear Gina,

    My heart is pierced by your words.

    I pray that God would envelope you with His love in a powerful way. I pray that His peace and comfort, which surpass all understanding, will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus.

    You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

  5. Love, hugs and prayers dearest Gina.


  6. Oh, Gina, thank you for the reminder. You are in my prayers.

  7. May the peace that surpasses understanding enter your heart and mind Gina.

  8. I am sending love and prayers for you, sweet Gina.

  9. Thinking of your Gina, and praying for you and your family. I pray that with God's help you will be able to make peace with the sad reality forced upon you.

  10. Gina,
    I found you thru a friend. I know your pain of losing a daughter. My Amber went to Heaven in July of last year. Her passing was sudden and ao unexpected. I am completely lost without her. I am not going to tell you it gets better because there are days I do not want to get out of bed. Today is one of those days!
    Some days are better than others. One small thing can bring back memories and I burst into tears. The only thing that gets me thru some days are knowing that I will see Amber again one day. I know we have to go on for our other children (I have another daughter).
    I see Sarah's birthday was a few days ago. Those are the hardest days along with the holidays. Somehow I survived the first year. I don't know how at times.
    If there is anything I can do for you please let me know.
    You are in my thoughts and prayers!
    Big HUGS)))

  11. I understand that you want to stop.
    Although I think you also a kind of consolation to blogging, you write the things that are inside is good I think.........

    Many warm hugs and sending you love and prayers darling...the candle burns always on my blog and you where always in my heart and prayers......hope to hear from you again....lots of love.....Ria....

  12. Your urging to show the ones I love how much they mean to me carries heavy weight with me, Friend. I will miss you while you're "gone", but every day that you don't post will be a reminder to lift your grieving heart to the Father who gave up His Only Son (who also was a "man of sorrows and acquainted with grief" Himself).

  13. I'll keep remembering you in prayer dear Gina.

  14. Someone very close to me lost a son at a young age. She decided to turn her depression into obsession with the desire to help those in need of someone to love them... The Elderly... Sometimes she would get up and say today is not my day to mourn but God's day to use me for others.

    I hope you are getting my comments, because everyday you are on my mind and in my prayers.
    Newnan, Ga Friend

  15. Today I thought of your daughter Sarah. I have been for some reason forgetting to buckle my seatbelt these last several months. Today, I realized why God brought me by chance to your blog...as I started out of the driveway this morning, I was not buckled and thought of her. Your story may have been the way God has given me a wake up call to how important it is for me to buckle and could save my life. Lifted Up a Prayer for you today...Newnan, Ga. Friend

  16. Following my father's death it was at least a year before I stopped the random crying - the spontaneous re-living of the event and those leading up to it. For the longest time I smelled him everywhere.
    The feelings can be raw still after two and a half years, and I don't think that that pain of the loss ever 'gets better.' I think that what happens is that we start to realize that no amount of grief will make any bit of difference. And so, we begin to let ourselves stop grieving. However, that itself can bring pain, too, if turned against itself. "How could I not have thought of him/her today! How could I NOT cry over that?!"
    But then, I have an odd brain, full of chemicals and connections that malfunction. Maybe my experience is completely unusual. I don't think so, though. I think grief is what it is.
    I wish you peace, Gina. I know that you know that the Lord has our best interests at heart and that there are no mistakes, no injustices in the grand scheme of things. I hope that your heart will allow you peace again soon.

  17. I have no words Gina but you are in our prayers...

  18. Gina,
    I have not visited for awhile because of my own time in dealing with Jonathan's death. As soon as the weather here got cooler I was overwhelmed with grief and sadness as it is close to his birthday and the anniversary of his death. I am going through I time of anger and I am not sure where it is coming from.

    I do not agree that time will heal this wound but I do believe God's promise that he will work all things to good to those that love him and to me that means that I will never be the same. God is working in me to make me something new. But it is such a struggle and deep purging.

    I am so glad you can be so honest with your emotions, at times I try to hide mine because of the ministry but lately I have come to think that nothing but ABSOLUTE TRUTH would really help people anyway. Love You Meg

  19. Just checking in on you Gina to say hi and to let you know I'm keeping you uplifted in prayer. (((Hugs))) Rosie

  20. Gina - I check in on you often through your posts. I have you in my thoughts and prayers and wish you peace. I know that is a large and lofty wish,but hope that day by day, joys will surround you and make the pain numb just a bit. You are a remarkable mom and woman and are making a difference to so many by sharing yourself and sharing Sarah. Eve Fearing Cugini


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